It has been 18 months since the boys lost their dad to suicide. He would have been 39 last weekend. Sam and Jay spent the weekend with their grandparents remembering their daddy. I spent the weekend relaxing and trying to not be angry. Yes, I am still angry. Not that he took his own life – but that the boys are still hurting. There aren’t many tears anymore, but the pain is still in the back of their mind. In…